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Rock my heart chapter Thirteen

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Alec Pov- I sat in a large studio room complete with a sound booth, instruments, and a dance floor. The room was as big as two large living rooms and Jace sat on the other side of it. When we came in here we looked at each other with an awkward silence before finally he went his way and I went mine. "We can't write a song like this" I said looking over at him. He was sitting at the piano brushing his fingers on the keys "Then come over here" He said not looking at me. I glared at him "Why should I come over there, I write songs over here so you come over here." "I write song's at the piano so you come over here" He said turning around to face me. "Oh please when was the last time you made a song for the piano" I said glaring at him. "Maybe I want to make a song with the piano now, get your ass over here Alec." I just turned my back to him crossing my arms "I'm not going anywhere." I could feel his eyes staring at my back "Since when are you this stubborn?" I rolled my eyes "Maybe I have always been like this. You wouldn't know since it seems you don't know anything about me." Grunting Jace stood up and marched over to me before grabbing the back of my chair and pulling it over to the piano with me still sitting on it. I glared at him "Very mature Jace." He turned the chair around so I was facing the piano before he sat on the bench "Let's start." I didn't want to give in that easy so I flung my song book all the way across the room. "Oh now who's being mature" He yelled before standing up and going to get my book. I glanced at him a little surprised that he didn't make me get it myself. "Raphael said at the beginning of this tour that he didn't want us writing a song together. What made him change his mind?" He bent over grabbing my book before sitting up shrugging "You have been causing a lot of trouble lately, between drama with Jonathan and dating Magnus i'm sure he thought us writing a song together would keep things simple." I looked at the piano keys frowning "Nothing about us is simple anymore." He walked up and sat back down on the bench "It could be simple again... you just won't let it." I glared at him swiping my book out of his hand "You're the one who made everything complicated. You lied about your feelings for me and after breaking up with me you treat me like I can't live without you. Do you really think my entire existence revolves around you?" he shrugged "It felt like it when we were together, you made it your top priority to make me happy." I rolled my eyes "You were my boyfriend of course I did. I will do the same for Magnus too." He looked at me frowning "What made you like Magnus Alec? We used to hate him with all of our being so what made you start dating him?" I sighed looking at my book "Magnus isn't perfect but I got to know the person he is instead of the guy his label made him be." "I haven't seen much of a difference" he mumbled and I looked at him "That's because Magnus doesn't like you. You may think that Magnus is one of those guys who wears his heart on his sleeve but that's not true. He has a side that not a lot know about, I don't even know about it yet but I sense it's there. He'll show it to me in time." Jace shook his head "What about Jonathan, He's obviously a nut job and he tried to fling you off a roof so why do you still insist on being his friend?" I shrugged opening my song book to a blank page "Can we please just write this song?" he nodded before starting to play some random notes on the piano trying to find a melody that sounded right. I closed my eyes letting the song take over me and like always I started singing words I thought would go well with his melody.

"Say something, I'm giving up on you"

I sang softly listening to the melody. Jace kept playing and closed his eyes singing

"I'll be the one, if you want me to"

 I opened my eyes looking at him frowning.

Alec: "Anywhere, I would've followed you" 

  Jace opened his eyes looking over at me.

Jace: "Say something, I'm giving up on you." 

Both: "And I am feeling so small,

It was over my head

I know nothing at all

And I will stumble and fall

I'm still learning to love

Just starting to crawl"

  Jace and I kept looking at each other before looking away continuing to sing.

Both: "Say something, I'm giving up on you

I'm sorry that I couldn't get to you

Anywhere, I would've followed you

Say something, I'm giving up on you"

Alec: "And I will swallow my pride

You're the one that I loved


And I'm saying goodbye"

Jace looked at Alec frowning before looking back at the piano focusing on the melody.

Jace: "Say something, I'm giving up on you

And I'm sorry that I couldn't get to you

And anywhere, I would have followed you

Oh-oh-oh-oh say something, I'm giving up on you"

Alec: "Say something, I'm giving up on you."

  Jace played the finishing melody ending the song by softly singing "Say something..." He stopped playing lost in thought before looking at Alec "Do you remember why we started singing?" I frowned nodding "It made Max happy, it made a lot of kids in that hospital happy even some adults." Jace nodded "It made you and I happy too... when did our music stop being happy? Why aren't we 'us' anymore?" I closed my song book caressing it gently "Remember that one song we made for the little girl Max was friends with in the hospital? She was blind and Max wanted us to make her happy so we wrote her a song." He nodded "We made a song for a deaf kid too, he couldn't hear it but the fact that we made it for him made him smile anyway." I nodded frowning "We promised our music would never be about us... but for the people who needed music." Jace ran his hand through his curly hair sighing " looks like we lost sight of that, we let all of our life drama get in the way." I quickly reopened my book to the empty page before looking Jace straight in the eye, it was the first time I had done so since we broke up. "I think we owe our fans a great song." Jace nodded in agreement and grabbed his guitar smiling "Let's do it." 

A couple hours later I walked out of the music room and made my way down the hall to see how Magnus and Sebastian were holding up. When I got there though I was a little surprised to see Sebastian was the only one there. "If you're looking for your boyfriend he's long gone." I walked more into the room and sat on one of the couches watching Sebastian write in his song book "I take it you two couldn't get along?" He shrugged "He didn't like my ideas and I didn't like his so he stormed out of here like a child." I laughed slightly, imagining Magnus stomping out of the room angry. "I don't think I will be able to work with that idiot much longer." I pulled my knees to my chest hugging them "I think you can do it. I'm sure there are things you and Magnus have in common that will help you creatively." He sighed rolling his eyes "There you go again trying to find the good in everything." "What's the matter with trying to see the good in everything?" "It's annoying as hell that's what the matter is." I shrugged and leaned in closer looking at his book "Is that song new?" He quickly pulled it away scowling at me "Yes, what's it to you?" I shrugged "Nothing you're just supposed to be writing with Magnus not by yourself." "What about you then? shouldn't you be with Jace and not here bothering me?" I smiled "Jace and I are already done with our song, we made two song's actually but the first one was nothing." He rolled his eyes "Well good flipping do for you." I laughed slightly and smiled at him "Can I hear your song?" I expected him to say no but after long pause he said "To be honest I wrote this song last night... it's about you and me." I blinked confused "me? How is it about me?" he shrugged "I don't know, the way you treat me and act like I might be a good guy. I think it's bullshit and it irritates me so I put it into a song." I let go of my knees and leaned into the couch cushions "I want to hear it." He sighed rolling his eyes again before reaching over for his guitar "I'm only doing this once you hear me?" I nodded smiling interested on what the song could be about. He sighed before starting to play the guitar. The melody was simple and wasn't dark like I was expecting. 

"I hate the world today, you're to good to me
I know but I can't change tried to tell you but you look at me
Like maybe I'm an angel underneath, innocent and sweet
Yesterday I cried, you must have been relieved to see the softer side
I can understand how you'd be so confused"

"I don't envy you
I'm a little bit of everything
All rolled into one" 

  He closed his eyes and slammed on his guitar strings looking slightly irritated about this song. 

"I'm a Dick, I'm a lover, I'm a child, I'm a brother
I'm a sinner, I'm a saint, I do not feel ashamed
I'm your hell, I'm a dream, I'm nothing in between
You know I wouldn't want it any other way"

  I slightly laughed silently liking his honesty, it was obvious that he thought of himself like this but to hear it in song was interesting. It was like the song was a mixture of both him and Jonathan and he knew it too. 

"So take me as I am
This may mean you'll have to be a smarter man
Rest assured that when I start to make you nervous
And I'm going to extremes
Tomorrow I will change and today won't mean a thing"

"I'm a Dick, I'm a lover, I'm a child, I'm a brother
I'm a sinner, I'm a saint, I do not feel ashamed
I'm your hell, I'm a dream, I'm nothing in between
You know I wouldn't want it any other way"

"Just when you think you've got me figured out
The season's already changing
you're such a tool, you do what you do
but don't try to save me"

"I'm a Dick, I'm a lover, I'm a child, I'm a brother
I'm a sinner, I'm a saint, I do not feel ashamed
I'm your hell, I'm a dream, I'm nothing in between
You know I wouldn't want it any other way"

  He finally looked me still playing and I moved my head to the beat which only made him shake his head at me. 

"I'm a dick, I'm a tease, I'm a god on my knees
When you hurt, when you suffer, I'm an angel undercover
I've been numbed, I'm revived, can't say I'm not alive
You know, I wouldn't want it any other way"

  He stopped playing looking at me "What did you think?" I tried to fight a smile from coming to my face. Obviously this was Sebastian's way of telling me to back off of him but all it really did was give me more reason to help him. I already had this much effect on him and that song was about Jonathan too not just Sebastian. "Stop smiling" He yelled irritably but I couldn't help it "I'm sorry, I just really liked that song. That song was the most of yourself you've ever shown and you chose to show it to me." He frowned "I'm trying to tell you to stop trying to change me." I shrugged "I think deep down you want to change." He rolled his eyes and put down his guitar "You're so stubborn." I nodded smiling "So I've been told." Magnus walked into the room and smiled seeing me on the couch "Alec you're here..." He lost his smile looking at Jonathan then back at me "Why are you with him?" I shrugged and patted the seat next to me for him to sit down "I came in here looking for you but you were bad and left before writing a song." Magnus sat next to me "This guy won't agree with any of my ideas." Sebastian rolled his eyes "Because they were all stupid." Magnus glared at him "Like you're one to talk, most of the things you write down are about hurting someone." I smiled "I'm sure you and Jonathan can find some common ground babe." Magnus looked at me "You are way to nice to him Alec." I shrugged standing up and I reached out my hand for his "Come on I want to go on a date." This made Magnus smile wide and he grabbed my hand getting up "I like the sound of that." Sebastian made a gagging noise with the back of his throat and I just waved bye to him smiling before leaving with Magnus. Magnus entwined our fingers looking at me "Sometimes I think you're nice to him just because you know it gets under his skin." I gave Magnus an evil smile making him smile back and kiss me "My sneaky boyfriend, that's pretty hot." I kissed Magnus back and laughed "I am trying to help him but getting under his skin is a good bonus." We got outside and I sighed looking around the streets of San Francisco "I wish we were still in New York, my favorite place to eat is there." Magnus smiled "You mean Taki's?" I smiled at him "You know my favorite place to eat?" he nodded kissing my hand "Of course and you love their lamb. I'm sure we can find Lamb somewhere else around here." I shook my head smiling "it's okay we can go to a diner or something, I'm kind of in the mood for a burger anyway. You really are amazing for knowing all that stuff about me Magnus." He laughed "I wouldn't call it amazing I had to get it from a profile page, that's being a stalker it's not romantic." "I think it's romantic, you made an effort to get to know me. In fact you went above and beyond to get to know me and that means the world to me. I just wish I knew more about you." He was quiet now looking at the street as if he was thinking hard about something. "Alexander... have I told you about my family?" I frowned squeezing his hand "No." He took a deep steady breath as if talking about them would take all his breath away. "Well you see... I'm the product of rape." Frowning, i stopped in my tracks looking at my lover sadly "What?" He met my eyes with sad green ones "My mother was raped and as a result she became pregnant with me. She and my step father raised me as if nothing was wrong, I thought he was my real father and they were always happy and smiling when I was around. When I turned ten though I started noticing little things, like how my mother always seemed to cry after I left the room or that my 'father' never really did anything with me like playing ball. On my tenth birthday I went to wake up my mother from a nap, she always seemed to sleep during the day so waking her up was normal, but when I went to wake her up she wouldn't open her eyes. She swallowed a whole bottle of anti depressants and over dosed." I covered my mouth with my free hand. Why would a parent ever want to leave their kid even if they came out of horrible circumstances? "There was a note on her bedside table telling my step father that she couldn't live with me anymore, that looking at me just reminded her of her rapist. After mom died my step father got abusive and blamed me, he would shove me down stairs and burn me with cigarettes, finally he tried to drown me in the bath tub. I grabbed a loose tile and hit him on the head with it before running away. I lived on the street for a long while but eventually got picked up by the cops and put in the system. That's where I met Ragnor and Catarina." "You all were in an orphanage together" I asked frowning more. He nodded "all three of us were rape children, it was no surprise that none of us were ever adopted. When I turned eighteen I took a chance and put out a video of me singing on the internet. The next day it had over a million views and a music producer came to me offering me a career." I frowned letting go of his hand and I rubbed my arm with it "Jace and I always envied you for becoming famous over night... we figured you didn't even have to work hard to get what you got." "it's true that I didn't work hard to be famous but I worked hard to make my life the best it could be." I nodded before looking into his eyes "I'm sorry." He shook his head grabbing my hand "I won't let myself be defined by the unfairness of my childhood Alexander." I nodded thinking about my parents "I was only sixteen when my parents died, we almost got put in the system but I went to court to prove I was mature enough to be emancipated and take care of my siblings. A year later Max developed cancer and If the government didn't help me pay for his treatment he would have died long before he did." Magnus frowned "I wish I could have met your brother." I nodded "me too he would think you're shiny." Magnus laughed and I smiled glad that the sad tension was gone between us "let's go eat i'm starving" I said grabbing his hand again, walking with him to a diner down the block from the studio. When inside we sat in a booth and I looked around taking in the small homey diner. "this place is really nice, it's calming." Magnus nodded looking through the menu "Yes it is but you know we are being stared at right?" I blinked and looked around seeing everyone's eyes were on us. Some people had their phones out 'secretly' taking pictures of us while others whispered to one another. Then there were the people who looked at us for a moment before just going back to eating. "We didn't wear hat's or sunglasses to hide our faces." Magnus shrugged "I don't see why we would have to hide. We're on a date eating food is that a crime?" I looked at him and smiled before picking up my menu opening it "No, no it's not." Magnus smiled and pointed to a picture of a stake "this looks pretty good." I looked it over and nodded "Yeah you should get it." He smiled closing the menu "I just might." I decided on a bacon cheese burger and after we ordered I reached over the table grabbing Magnus's hand and playing with it smiling. He smiled watching me "Do you like my hand?" I shrugged looking it over "I don't like that their bigger then mine, and do you ever stick with one nail color? Everyday you have a different nail color on, when do you even have time to change it?" he shrugged smiling "I like variety." he started looking at my hand too smiling "I like your hands too, though a little polish would really make them look better." I pulled my hand away and hid them under the table "And you are officially done with my hands." Magnus whined "Oh come one Alec just a little color?" I shook my head no "I don't do color Magnus." He pouted but let it go when our food got there "I think you would look cute." I raised an eyebrow in question "Just like you thought it would be cute to put eye shadow on me while I was sleeping?" He smiled and pulled out his phone looking the picture he took of me wearing eye shadow "Oh you looked so gorgeous." I rolled my eyes smiling "I have the strangest boyfriend in the world." Magnus laughed and winked at me "You know you love it baby." I laughed "Oh yeah I totally do, you caught me." Our food was put on the table and we ate, talking about what kind of music we liked.  

Magnus Pov- I loved watching Alec talk about music, I asked him what his favorite genre was and the next thing I know he set off like a firework. He loved jazz, rock, classical, even Broadway music which I personally loved as well. He hated country music which didn't surprise me much because nothing about Alec said country. Alec noticed that he was babbling and quickly looked down blushing "Oh god i'm sorry, I talk to much don't I?" I smiled laying my chin in the palm of my hand "Not at all Alec, I love listening to you." Alec messed with the fries on his plate not believing me "I do, I talk to much and it's annoying." I shook my head watching him "You over think things Alexander, I love hearing how much you love music." he glanced up at me "Really?" I nodded "I swear it." he nodded and looked across the room as a young lady started playing the piano. Alec closed his eyes smiling "Oh I love this song, it's called The River Flows in You." I leaned back "You know Yiruma?" he nodded swaying to the music "he's one of my favorite pianists. Jace loves him and at first I only listened to classical music to have something in common with him but I quickly fell in love with it." I smiled standing up "How about we dance?" Alec blushed "Oh um, I can't dance." I grabbed his hand pulling him to the middle of the room "Dance with me Alexander." Alec blushed looking around seeing everyone staring at us. "They're all looking at us... if they see me dance they'll laugh." I touched his cheek forcing him to look at me "Do you really care what strangers think Alec?" He searched my eyes for a moment before shaking his head no. I smiled wrapping my arms around his waist pulling his body against mine and he wrapped his arms around my neck blushing. We started moving together and not even two seconds into it Alec stepped on my foot. He bit his lip and tried to move away but I held him in place "you're doing great." "I stepped on your foot Magnus." I rolled my eyes smiling "Everyone steps on feet the first time they dance. You're doing great just don't think about it." He nodded moving with me again and this time he watched his feet to make sure he wouldn't step on me again. I put my hand under his chin making him look me in the eye "Alexander just look into my eyes and lose yourself to the music." He swallowed hard before nodding and keeping eye contact with me moving around the room with me in a swift stride. I smiled happily twirling around the floor with him being completely lost in his beautiful gaze. Others started dancing too making Alec relax a little and give in to the music. He closed his eyes and hummed the tune coming from the piano laying his head on my shoulder. I kissed his forehead moving nice and slow with him feeling relaxed with him so close. When the song ended we stood still and Alec opened his eyes looking into mine smiling "This is the greatest date I have ever been on." I smiled and cupped his face in my hands "For me too" I kissed him softly and he kissed me back smiling happily. After breaking the kiss we walked back to our table smiling at each other not able to look away from each others eyes. The rest of the date was like that, just Alec and I lost in our own little world inside each others eyes.

 "This is never going to work" I yelled wanting to pull my hair out every second I was with this insensitive blonde who made Jace look like a cake walk. I thought I hated Jace more then anyone else in the world but Jonathan Morgenstern was quickly claiming that spot. "If you stop refusing all of my ideas we would be done already" Jonathan said scowling at me. "You keep rejecting my ideas too you know. Jace and Alec are finished already and we only have one more day to finish this." "It's impossible you and I are just too different we have nothing in common. Opposites don't attract when it comes to music." I plopped on the couch fanning myself, the air conditioner was broken and the room felt like it was eighty degrees. Jonathan must have been hot too because he kept wiping sweat off his brow. "Fucking weather isn't helping either." I nodded finally agreeing with him on something. I shouldn't be here, I should be at the hotel with Alec laying in the air conditioning with him and making out. I would love to see him in a swimsuit and this was the perfect weather for it but I'm deadly afraid of the water ever since my step father tried to drown me. Jonathan grunted before taking off his shirt "Don't get any ideas about attacking me just because I have my shirt off" He scowled. I rolled my eyes "Just because I like guys doesn't mean I'm attracted to you in any way possible." He shrugged and turned his back to me looking over his song book. I looked at him frowning seeing whip marks all over his back. Alec said that day I caught them together with Jonathan's shirt off he had marks on his back from Valentine. "So... your dad whips you?" His entire body tensed up "That's none of your business now is it?" I shrugged "Is whipping all he does to you? Those marks seem pretty old so does he still do it?" "I'm not going to talk about this with you" He said glaring at me. I met his eyes and there was a tiny shred of sadness in them that I almost missed completely behind all the anger. "You know... My mother hated me too... and my step father took it out on me all the time. He even almost drowned me to death." Jonathan's scowling face softened a bit "Why did she hate you?" "She hated me for something that was out of my control, She was raped and I was the result of it." Jonathan's shoulders relaxed as he leaned back "My mom hates me because I tried to kill Clary..." "Alec says you weren't in control though what ever that means." He laughed slightly "I was in control it was Jonathan who wasn't in control." I looked at him confused "What?" He shrugged "I have multiple personality disorder, Jonathan is the real one while I'm a fake. The name's Sebastian by the way I think it's about time you knew about it." "Does Alec know about this" I asked shocked. Jonathan rolled his eyes when I mentioned Alec "Yes and he is trying to help Jonathan reunite with his family. I don't think it's a good idea though because Jonathan's mom is incapable of loving him. He will only get hurt again and I wont have it." I frowned taking all this in, so this is why Alec is so set on helping Jonathan and being his friend. "So family tragedy is something we have in common" I said thinking. He nodded "I'm sure it's the only thing we do have in common." I stood up "Well then I think we found what we should write about." he looked at me thinking before nodding and grabbing his guitar "Let's get started then." 








  
Alec Lightwood is a famous song writer and singer and he has been in a secret relationship with his best friend Jace since the end of high school. Jace is also in a band and the two of them travel together touring the world. Well during a singing contest they meet Magnus Bane who is an overnight sensation. Alec doesn't like Magnus's music cause he claims they don't have any meaning but when the three of them are forced to tour together and Alec starts developing feelings for Magnus how crazy will this love triangle get? this is a malec/ jalec story but mostly Malec. 

Chapter sum: Everyone starts trying to write together but can they do it? Alec and Jace still have tension between them and Magnus and Sebastian have nothing in common, or do they? 

So like I always say I chose the songs based on the lyrics. 'Say something' felt like a good song for Jace and Alec to finally let go of their drama. As for Sebastian's song I changed it a bunch to go around Sebastian's personality. His song is called 'I'm a bitch, I'm a lover' but in his case it's dick instead of bitch. Just a random note, I started this chapter last week sometime and about died when I heard the 'Bitch' song on 'Glee' because i just got done using that song for Sebastian. 

I don't own any of these song's used or the characters of The Mortal Instruments. 

Note: this might be my last update for the past week, I have surgery next weekend so it might take me a little while to get out the next chapter or any other chapters for other stories. 
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